Found somewhere to move!

Made it through most of the holidays and now I have to move. Well I can’t say its going to be that hard of a move as I found a big one bedroom apartment directly across from my current two bedroom apartment, so literally I will carry my stuff down stairs across the street to where a truck would probably be parked anyway and into the new building. I think I will just call on my friends to help – yes you the only person I know who reads my blog and yes you my sister. Thanks guys it’s really great of you to offer the help, I will be moving on multiple days to accommodate everyone’s schedules. So don’t worry we can make it work!

Anyone want to buy a nice bed frame for a double bed? $200 I would post it on CL but I don’t have a picture of it and I also don’t have access to CL at work.

Help me move and I may feed you - yummy...

Moving it fun!!!
Kill me now!!
I must be crazy!!

Moving

(big sigh) I'm moving again. Well I was here almost a whole 2 years. The funny thing about this one is, Monday my boyfriend and I talked about moving in together maybe in March or April. Then on Tuesday my roommate said - bad news I am moving out - moving day Feb 1st. Wow that's quick. So now I have to figure out where to go. Now I could possibly stay where I am and just have my boe move in with me and I could move in with him but I really just don't feel to safe in his building. So I am thinking clean start together in a new place. So we are looking for around the $1000 mark 1 or 2 bedroom or 1 bed and den, bath tub a must and not on the ground floor. Added bonus - in house washer and dryer. I want to stay in Vancouver perf. Kerrisdale or Kitts. So boe can still walk to work. Fun fun

Added Christmas Stress can drive you to drink!!

Ok if you don’t know this about me already I LOVE MY JOB. But wow I have been so busy with work that I haven’t even started half of my Christmas shopping. I have to get going on that and to top it off funds aren’t flowing since I got back from the UK, paying lots of bills!! So I guess I am a bit stressed and it’s silly really.

I’m stressed because I haven’t been able to decorate things completely the way I want them and I haven’t had a chance to get it done. I am stresses because I am not sure if I will have enough money to buy all my gifts I think that’s all I’m stressed about. But its ok, I know it will be fine, this has happened before and I always seem to work through things so I really shouldn’t be worried.

But you know what I have finished all the meetings and Christmas parties for work that I had to organize so that is a huge weight of my shoulders, now I can concentrate more on my own things. Wow 11 more shopping days till Christmas!!!!!!!

It was my ID 10 T problem!

My Sister was so kind to tell me how to put pictures on, I feel kind of stupid at how easy it really was. But anyways here is James, Sarah and Me from there wedding in Wales on October 29th. She looks great doesn’t she. I miss them and they are going to be moving out here. So James sent me his resume and I am trying to help him look for potential work. So if anyone knows anyone who knows someone who would like anyone for a job as something like an HND Architectural Design & Technology job...

Well hopefully I can continue to put pictures on my blog, because its better that way!

Breaking Wind

What does it symbolize once you have broken wind in front of your significant other? Does it mean comfort, true love or you’re just too lazy to squeeze your bum muscles so nothing comes out. I guess you could get up and go to another room but it’s a tiny apartment it doesn’t matter where I go, its going to smell everywhere eventually. Although I do think mine smell like roses... I think some people may debate me on this but...what ever.

My personal favorite is the cup and through. Those of you who don't know what this is I will explain. While comfortable snuggling together and you know that you are going to break wind...that’s when you take your hand place it over your butt cup the fart and then throw it in your partners face. And believe me it works, Many people are quite skeptic until someone does it to them. But I can't take the credit on this one; it was my child hood friend (Carmen) who taught me this. Those who know Carmen should not be one little bit surprised at this moment.

So the next time you are nuzzled up on the couch with your honey and you feel something coming on try the cup and through - it’s a great way to break the ice.

I am technically challenged

Yes it’s true – well I guess the fact that I still can’t put pictures on here doesn’t say much for me. But that damn outlook account…

I had to send a huge invite out and I updated it – big mistake I some how cancelled it and then re-invited everyone- WTF. Yeah I’m looking good now!

Head is throbbing

Ok anyone else going crazy over the holiday season?

I don’t want to shop anymore! I don’t wanna!

I am so tired of working all day then going to the mall and then going home and doing it all over again the next day! Hmmm is it worth it…

Tis the season

Yes that’s right “tis the season” To trek up and down eight flights of stairs to get Christmas decorations because for some reason both elevators in our building don’t like to work.

So after that is when I take the time to realize we have way too many Christmas garb for our apartment and I spent over an hour getting it all up here. Then the next hour bringing it out of the boxes. To get me a little more into it I though hey why not listen to some Christmas music. Big mistake, so after going through all my CD’s and then just coming to the realization that I have no idea where the Christmas music is I just turned on the radio… another hour wasted.

Tree’s up (fake, so you would think the needles wouldn’t fall off) I had to decide on where to put it, hmmm not to many options…
1). Push against the wall beside the TV.
2). Push against the wall beside the computer.
3). Push against the sliding door beside the chair.

I went with options 2, and I think it’s safe to say no more then 3 people can come into my apartment at any given time.

LIGHTS!!! Wow so apparently as Kristy Anne informed me, she bought the cheep lights, so this means if one burns out they all burn out. So for the next three hours while sitting in front of the TV I pulled lights out and put lights in. Wow I can’t believe I didn’t resort to actually going to Canadian Tire and buying new lights (but I’m pretty sure they probably only sell the crapy lights anyway)

Ok lights are on the tree, I am going to bed. There is no way I am going to finish this today I am excused and coming very close to hiring someone to come and do this for me. I remember this was fun as a kid, what happened?

Addictions

I think I have developed a new addiction. I have been waking up every morning and kind of thinking of it. Then I get ready for work or my day and all I can do is think of what it will do to me when I have it and how happy I will be afterwards.

Now I never thought I would be the type to start with this addiction as I never really thought my family had an addictive personality and I didn’t think anything was passed down to me. But then I stepped back and took a look.

That’s when it hit me – I’m dead wrong. My mom smoked for 10+ years my grandma smoked for 20+ years. My dad likes to hit the bottle and my brother well he likes Mary Jane. My sister is border line I am not sure if I would call it an addiction or OCD but I have never seen anyone be as fineness freaky as her. So like I said after stepping back and taking a good look and realizing really how wrong I was. I thought shit – I need it and I need it now.

I can’t continue on with out it anymore and if I don’t have it I know I will have a bad day! I just can’t function with out it. I never started at a young age It has only been coming into my life on and off for the last 3 years. It’s just so easy to come by now and there are so many different kinds the options are really endless.

I don’t think I can stop… am I going to start shaking if I do? Who would ever think one think could control so many of my thoughts…I never wanted to be trendy or follow the crowd. Can I please have a Grande non-fat Vanilla latte, not to hot.

Close your eyes and just taste it…

Oh the places I've been

Well I haven't been anywhere that fancy. I went to Wales for Sarah and James's wedding and it was amazing. I wish I could attach a picture but I am still and Idiot and can't seem to do it. Really I need a blog page where its simple stupid for me to work. I can't figure this one out for the life of me.

aaaa Wales, it was raining, it was sunny, it was never hot! I was lucky enough to stay at Sarah and James's place or as they are now know Mr. and Mrs. Madley's place. But not so lucky for me so were some of there other friends (no names will be mentioned) but hell it made for a rough two weeks. I was amazed at how calm Sarah was for the duration of our visit. I am hoping she didn't go into break down mode after we left...but if I had to use one word to discribe staying there with these other people it would be..."painful". at thats putting it nicely!

I logged onto a blog of an x-co-worker and she had a pretty cool site - I think I might move shop over there. Wow this has been exciting.

Toes

My feet are cute. Toes on some people are cute. Although I do have to admit sometimes when I see hair on guys toes its .. well its a turn off. But I never realized my fascination with the human foot until the other day when I noticed that my Big toes are abnormally larger then most peoples big toes... Then I started searching out people wearing sandals and throngs (side note: Socks and sandals is wrong) so the search began and I realized that not everyone’s toes are in line top to bottom Big to small. That’s right there are people out there with second toe (aka on hand pointing finger) that’s longer then the big toe, for me this is different as my toes are not like this, so I dove into it more and realized its pretty common. What’s with peoples baby toes turning side ways and they practically have not nail left...ehhhh. After I started speaking of my toe obsession to co-workers and friends (and yes they think i am crazy)I realized people think so many different things about toes...If you have a fat Big toe it means wisdom??? If Your pointing toe is longer then your Big toe it means good sex drive?? Who comes up with these and has there been a full study done on this? hmmm toes.

Fall Fall Fall

I fell down!

hehehe no I didn't its fall and I am leaving for England on October 21st and I have not yet bought my ticket as I have not yet saved any funds for this.... Problem nahh, I will figure it out some way or another. I can always stand on a corner and squeegee a car...right didn't you say $30 an hour, and if I don't have a crack habit I can continue to work all day and this is tax free....wow I think I have a plan, I can even bring clean water, the Vancouverites won't know what hit them!! WTF clean water not piss! Or I can just hope and pray that a visa shows up to my house sooner then later and I can pay for the flight that way, I also still have to get an out fit for the wedding a hat and finish my gift and help with the stag and get a b-day present for Paul and Sarah.....ahahhahhhhhhhhhhhh I may be going crazy...

Shit its fall and I have to leave in October....am I going to get this done!

I can't cook

I new I couldn't really cook, but I did think I had some skill to do the basic's. But I think I was wrong, because tonight I tried to make turkey breast wrapped in bacon with corn and potatoes...easy right.

well Noel fucked it up...hahha, ok I over cooked the turkey, and the bacon was undercooked - go figure?

The Corn, was old and freezer burnt so there for it was NASTY and the potatoes, well I just didn't cook them long enough...so I suck at cooking.

As I have been told before, "It would be harder if there wasn't any"

www.cookingforidiots.com

Crazy Kids....

You would think I would go on and on about all the annoying/crazy kids at the mall.

Yes I made the decision to go to Metrotown on a holiday, yes it was a holiday when most people go to the mall for a dreaded thing called "back to school".

BUT NO, I am not here to bitch about the kids.... the kids were great I had no problem with the kids. It was all the damn mothers...yes that's right the damn mother with there big ass strollers walking in the mall banging at my ankles as they attempt to forcefully pass me. Come on really there should be some kind of STROLLER RESTRICTION .... at least two times a year..."back to school" and "Christmas". Don't think I don't remember Christmas that's even worse, because the strollers also seem to be loaded not only with child but with bag, many many bags...some times I wonder if child is even in stoller.

Come on Moms, get a babysitter, ask dad to stay home for once...just stop wounding me below me knees!!

Whats happening

Work: I have a new job!!! This is a good thing, even though I here many things about cult like activities; I am way about that - position wise. I love my new job! TIC can like my monkey’s balls! Ok.

Boys: I have a boy, for just over three months now, I find everything hard to balance, and get really overwhelmed at times. But I really like it other then that.

Other: you know basic drama here and there. Girl’s night out Friday night - We went to the Roxy and Kristy hooked us up as always we had a great time.

Tonight: Def Leppard - I fell asleep at the concert...I think my boy is a bit mad about that as I am sitting over here at the computer and he is on the other side of the room. Hey I didn't ask to go to Def Leppard, I knew ONE song that’s it and I was tired from the girls night - last night I didn't go to be till three AM, and then got up early to take my car to White Rock to get my brakes done, I was worried about that as I wasn't sure how much money that was going to cost me but it ended up being nothing because my brakes are apparently FINE – Go figure, they didn't seem fine when I was trying to stop!!! So I went out and bought some shoes and a jacket and some other clothes and accessories...because hey I deserve it.

I miss Robyn, I don't know where she is right now, and its way to late to call. BUT I never get to see her anymore, I need more Robyn time.

I have to be a gnome? How is that done, please tell me!!! AS I have no FUCKING clue.

Ok I am going to go to bed now, as Shawn and I are going for breakfast tomorrow - Paul and I were supposed to be going to the PNE but he switched his shifts--buuuhaaa.

Rating of breakfast will commence tomorrow...very exciting, results to be posted soon.

Camping

Well it is camping season, and I have only gone once this year that was when I skiped out of work for the girls camping trip. Well I quit that job and I have a way better job that I LOVE now, oh so good! Hope it stays that way. Anyways I am going camping this weekend and I got a new camp stove!!!! I am sooooo excited I haven't bought any new camping stuff in soooo long. Well how lame have I become....bloging about a camping stove.

Loud and Clear

I guess I made my point loud and clear, there for no need to go anyfurther with it!

I found the Knife!

Don't worry I will have something to say...

Can you parallel park?

Oh my god, so Shawn and I went for our normal Saturday morning breaky and I parked my car on Main Street and we crossed over to Five point and sat on the patio for breakfast. Just after we were served our coffee I noticed a small Asian man and his wife parking behind my car, I noticed because he was going on such a sharp angel that he was almost hitting the tree on the side walk, so I pointed this out to Shawn and we sat and watched as he attempted to park his car and hitting the back of my car for the first time. Then his wife got out of the car and he decided to pull up even more and at this point hit my car again. Then he got out of his car and they both walked to the store they were parking in front of and it was closed. So then he decided to get back in his car AGAIN and AGAIN he hit my car ok so he wasn’t hitting it hard otherwise I would have been over there the very first time he hit it. But hell after the third time I got my ass out of my seat crossed the street walked right up to the back of my car and said you hit my car not once not twice but THREE times gesturing erratically. Then his wife runs over NO no no no no we did not hit car no no I said I was sitting there watching you the hole time, I said don't worry there is no damage but you NEED to take some Driving lessons....she is like oh but it very small spot...HELLO I could have parked two of my VW golf’s in that spot. So what ever not a huge deal, more entertaining then anything. So the day goes on and as we are coming out of Tim's with our coffee I am walking up to my car and there is a pretty good size scrape about a foot and a half long on my front corner bumper...I was pissed, Like FUCK Vancouver can no one drive out here?? I came to Vancouver with my car from the burbs and I tell you it was dent and scratch free then I come and live out here and holey fuck I need to triple my insurance! I think don't move your car from your garage unless you know how the FUCK to drive and PARK!!

Moving on up

He he yeah baby I got a NEW job! And a good one to its not like I'm going from one place to another to do the same thing for a couple more bucks an hour...ITS WAY BETTER THEN THAT. Well anyways I am excited, hope it all works out, time will tell.

Why don't we just know...

Why don't we just know if someone likes us or not, why does it have to be so difficult. What is the deal with all the games people play? I bite me tongue saying this..."What comes around goes around" maybe if I was a better person this wouldn't happen to me, maybe if I didn't do that to him this other guy wouldn't be doing this to me. Nah that’s Bull Shit right....Tell me its bull shit. It has to be because what if you live your life being the best person you can be and then something shitty happens to you...why would this happen to you, you haven't done anything to deserve it....Or does something greater then us know that we intend to do something wrong later in life and we start paying for it now? Who knows....I know nothing this is obvious because then I would know what to do...

I had a really catchy rant

BUt this imac sucks ass and I thought I went to copy and paste and I lost my work...fucking thing...Im bitter.

Canada Day!!!

Well I did shit all for Canada Day. I hung up a Canadian Flag in my window and wore my roots Canada sweater. Paul and I went to White Rock to have diner with my mom, and we were going to stay and watch the fire works but we were way to tired so we left early.

What else happened on Canada Day...oh ya I ran out of gas...hahahhaha I knew it would happen sooner or later because I always like to see how far below the red line I can go before I actually run out of gas...well I can go pretty far...good thing Kristy Ann was around to help me out, she picked me up and we got a Jerry Can...or some may call it other types of cans...but anyway we filled it up with $2.67 worth of gas drove back to my car spilt $1.10 worth and used the $1.57 to get back to the gas station to fill the car...oh ya during the purchasing of the $2.67 of gas and the $10 Jerry Can I realized I didn't have my bank card as I had just changed purses and forgot all about that and my drivers license. So Paul bailed me out and paid for everything...thank god...maybe I have learnt my lesson..but I doubt it.

Happy Canada Day!

Memory Loss

I have been driving in my car many times with many different people thinking of things that come to me that would be cool to write in my blog...then I finally get a chance to write on a computer (FYI: mine is broken again) and I forget all my thoughts...so this is a call out to all my passengers...what was I thinking and why can't I remember it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Movies

Mr. and Mrs. Smith

Loved IT...Brad Pitt of course is Gorgeous and what’s her face isn't bad either. I do recommend it especially if your a Brad Pitt Lover. Its kind of a chick flick but Paul liked it too so I think most guys would be into it.

Batman Begins

Paul thinks this movie is Awesome!! As do I, actually I loved this movie, I went in thinking nothing can beat Michael Keatons Batman...but hell no I was wrong...this movie is by far the best and if you haven't seen it you need to...go do it, do it now.

Ironic ?

On June 19th after writing Crack Whores need Loven too.... I was getting off work in BBY around 3PM and driving out to White Rock to my moms for father’s day. I drove past Edmonds Sky train station and in passing it looked like this guy was either attacking this girl or giving her the j-thrust maneuver...after passing and trying to put it out of mind I decided I had to turn around. I can't be one of those people who just keep driving. So I turn the car around get out my cell phone and pull up to where the guy and girl are. At this time a younger normal guy had stopped and was calling 911 so I get out of my car and the not so normal guy is holding the (on closer inspection) not so normal girl. What the hell did I walk in to... So I start yelling at the guy saying what’s going on and after yelling a few times he advised me that his girlfriend has overdosed on Heroine...FUCK-I know first aid but I don't have gloves masks .... nothing. So I don't want to touch her. So I start yelling out to the very out of it boyfriend to lay her on the ground, I checked for a pulse...very week but there then I checked her eyes...pin point, did some pressure points...she felt pain. I started screaming her name Debra Debra she would respond every so often there wasn't much more I could do....just wait kept checking on the pulse and the ambulance finally came. They gave me some sani wash and I was on my way. So I don't think I will be joking about crack whores needed loven anymore...cause they don't need loven from me.

Crack Whores Need Loven to

Thursday Night Shawn and I stopped by my sisters Caporia Class which happens to be located on Kingsway around Victoria. Which leads me to my Title...Yes crack whores need loven to, we were driving down Kingsway doors locked windows up looking at all the wonderful people who wander around there, we have full fledged Crack whores looking in all the cracks trying to find crack...Believe me its true this is what they do. Then we have Crack whores in training...they are well on there way to becoming a full fledged crack whore. We say they are in training because you can still somewhat see there face, its not completely covered in scabs at this time and they still seem to have clothes on that are somewhat clean. Anyways after parking the car, we went into watch Tammy do her Caporia thing...very exciting and hot men too. Shawn advised me it was a good thing I was stuffed up as, the smell wasn't that pleasant.

Writers Block

I am sitting here staring at this blank white screen that I look at as a canvas waiting for its picture. But I just can't seem to do it lately. I don't know why, maybe because I have been doing things that are to personal for me to post and I just don't feel comfortable talking about it to everyone. Ok maybe because I am lame and exhausted and think know one wants to read about me baby sitting and going out on dates and getting gifts. Why has my mind gone blank.

I have been a very bad girl...

Sorry avid readers who are getting mad at me because I have not updated lately. I have been crazy busy meeting new people and hanging with the old. I also concocted elaborate schemes for a good laugh....muhahhaa.

Everyone knows my friend Shawn and my friend Shawn's big ass Black tattoo on his arm being somewhat of a distinguishing mark. I thought it would be fun, hehe since he is a loyal Thursday morning "I saw you" reader to maybe make up an "I saw you" and see what happened...again hehe. I think the best part of the whole thing was having sooooo many people who new about it and everyone was wondering if he had read it yet.

Me I was feeling a bit guilty at one point as I didn't want to hurt him...but I had full intentions to not let it go far if he didn't know it was me. But he did know it was me...i just wasn't sly enough when hinting to grab me a Georgia Straight...next time I will have to plan harder. If you want to see that add... its the Home Depot Richmond one...

http://www.straight.com/classifieds.cfm?category=City%20Singles&classification=I%20Saw%20You

or if that doesn't work this is it....but you should check the rest out because you never know who may have saw you!

Home Depot - Richmond

I noticed you noticing me, You cute dark hair, black tattoo on arm, maybe left. Me green shirt long, straight, dark hair. Your were with your sister?

Email me aiesha_today@yahoo.ca


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Don't drink and Blog...

Well I haven't been drinking but I am now Blogging. My question is why WHY WHY am I still up. I have this on going need to surf the net tonight and I just can't stop. Please help me...my eyes hurt, my butt is numb.

Marinate on that.

Stocker??

I think nickelback is stocking me. There can be no other explanation for it! Why is it...WHY I say is it that every time I seem to go to the Roxy he shows up. hmmmm can you say stocker...I think he needs to move on...Really I have proved time and time again that I AM NOT going to give him the time a day...Really move on maybe they should start checking out the Mirage it might be more there thing...

As Sarah W would say "It really is hard being so beautiful..., no really it is its like a blessing and a curse at the same time" and as I would say "shut up bitch"

Break!

I can't help it that's just the way I feel...

This goes out to everyone... who is upset or pissed or mad at me for reading my blog. Fuck you!! Its my blog and you don't have to read it. I can't help it that you keep coming back to read on for more. These are MY FEELINGS I can't change them, if you want I can sensor them more then what they are already, but what would be the fucking point. So I have posted this web page everywhere so read on and you can FEEL what you want about it and I don't care because that is the way YOU FEEL! So leave a comment or shut the fuck up. M. this is not meant for you.

What happened this weekend...

Ok lets see this is the wonderful exciting things I did this weekend.
Friday after work I came home and changed and killed some time before I had to drive out to Surrey to feed Robyns fish as her Steve and Nisha went out to Banff for Nicole's Wedding. I drove out to Surrey enjoying the amazing weather, I brought some towels over and took advantage of having a washer and dryer to use. It was pretty late by this time and thought I would call around and see if anyone from the Delta crew was up to doing anything as I didn't really want to drive all the way home after driving all the way out there. So I go a hold of Nicole and I grabbed a DVD from Robyns HUGE collection and we went and watched Swingers. Then I went home and had a hard time getting to sleep as it was super hot that night. Two cold showers later It was nice and comfy in bed.

Saturday morning I got up and went out side and basked in the sun while listening to The Faith, then I had another cold shower...really I do love the heat but I also like to be cool. Tonight was the night we are supposed to be going out for Nicole's Birthday, its just the girls and plans have already changed a few times. Initially we were supposed to be going to Bimmini's on 4th, then to the Roxy then to Sky Bar all fine by me, then Lauren's friend Jen (who was supposed to have her birthday on Friday) changed her mind and decided they were going out Saturday night, so Lauren wasn't going to be able to join us at the bar. Soooo we yet again changed the plans and we ended up going to the Mirage in Surrey (wow it was a Surrey kind of weekend) any ways first I packed a bag and figured I have to go feed Robyns fish again so why not just bring all my clothes and makeup and get ready at Nicole's. So I pack everything and jump into my car and drive out to Surrey yet again, The fish were doing great, I fed them and then watched channel 59 which are the security camera'a What fun this was as it seems to be moving day and HOT guys were involved. After a hard afternoon of watching hot sweaty guys I headed out with Nicole and we did some shopping then back to her place to get ready for a night out. So it ended up being Laura, Nicole, Lauren, Lindsay and Myself for diner, then Lauren headed off to Jenn's and the rest of us headed to the Mirage. We stood in line for what was way to long then we finally said Fuck it, why wait this long to get into what is only a Surrey club at that, so then we all started to walk away when one of the bouncers comes running after us saying wait don't leave...he then offered us free cover and we took it...really it was 11:40 what else were we going to do. So he asks us all for our ID's and we grab them.. fuck were the oldest people here...and fuck I don't seem to have my ID, he let me in anyway..I mean come on im 27, so we head in and we had a solid night of 21 and 23 year olds trying to pick us up...it was kind of cute..if only they new how much older we were. Ok so after a night of Lind's and I cutting down half the bar we headed back to Nicoles where I ended up crashing around 4:30 then getting up the next morning at 9.

Sunday morning I was already in Surrey so I was off to Robyns to change my laundry over and clean myself up a bit. Shawn phoned and wanted to do breakfast, I was happy to do so and also to get all the juice on the newest girl Angie who he picked up on the skytrain. So I picked him up at Skytrain and for some reason we drove all the way downtown to have breakfast at Denny's on Davey...yes there is a Denny's in Surrey and one in the COQ, we also passed the one on Burrard but we ended up on Davey...And it was shit..note to self don't go back to Denny's. So after that we stopped off at my place because I was still baffled as to where my driver's license was as I can't remember the last time I used it...It was in my jean's Kristy ann and I had went to the cheese...see drunken blog post.. after that quick stop we went back to Shawn's and both napped on the couches then I realized the time, I had to pick up my Grandma and drive out to White Rock for a BBQ at mom's and make a quick stop at Robyns to pick up the last of my laundry as she is back tonight.

So we had a good BBQ It was Ma, Gram, Tammy, Shawna, Michelle and her boyfriend Travis and myself. We had some good hamburgers and some good conversations. One being the rejection of Michelle's piercing...Ouch, I was always worried about that when I had my nipple done!!! Lucky for me its all good, because she has a nice scar on her belly button. Well was exhausted by this point, Shawn had also called to mention that he was going to the Snoop Dogg concert...the last time I went to a Snoop concert it was horrible...I like him, but he's bad when he is by himself...So I am still waiting to here how that went...hopefully no gangster boys ruffed him up and showed him what a real gang bang is....

Just a Story.

To have or not to have

The short story of a tragic ending…

Once upon a time in a far far away land lived a creature by the name of Bart Borg, he was a well-liked creature by all the other creatures, until one day… He decided to leave the land far far away and go to the land further further away. He decided that this land further further away would help in his future to create a better life for him and his family he will one day have.

So in preparation for his trip he decided to make the long haul to the land further further away with as little of his prize positions as possible and by doing this he started to offer out his belongings to all the other creatures in the land of far far away. One particular instance seems to stand out in this storyteller’s mind…it may be because of the direct impact it had…but one will never know.

The convenience of Bart leaving at this time was great for one due to the fact that another creature was also moving (but staying with in the land of far far away) and this one creature lets call her Nora was struggling to fill her apartment with furniture necessities to sleep and sit on. When Bart came forward and offered a bed to sleep on…sure Nora was a little skeptic…who knew what mileage it had. But when Nora came to his dwellings and laid her eyes upon the sweet red velvet couches she fell in love at once…(despite the odd odour coming from the other room).

At this immediate time Nora put forth an offer and made it clear that she loved the couches and would take them. Nora then set off to find her room partner who she would have to bestow the couch upon. It was the last step in the final approval. Two days had passed when Nora was finally able to call Bart and confirm that the sweet velvet red couches were to be hers and that’s when he broke the news…

Yes this part of the story is hard to tell because of the sad tragic out come…when that call was placed a shaky voice said…oh you wanted the couches sorry I didn’t really think you did and I sold them to my friend. Then there was a thud and that was Nora’s heart coming to a sudden stop. Bart felt her pain but still was able to offer the bed. Nora accepted and as the days past slowly got over the love of the sweet red velvet couches that she almost had.

Then as part of the healing process Nora decided to go out and buy a brand new couch even know it wasn’t in the budget…but it would help her get through this hard time. So after spending $2500.00 on brand new couches the pain went away and she was able to forgive Bart and move on with her life…Until the day after she bought the couches she was making her way home when her phone rang…and who was it on the other end of that call…yes that’s right it was Bart.

Good news he says… my friend no longer wants the sweet velvet red couches and they are yours!! Their was an lengthy silence and then a little whimper…that’s when Nora brook the news…I just bought new couches!!! “oh” said Bart “are you sure” Nora was sure but now Bart had to find someone to take the sweet red velvet couches.

So with that I end this story saying…RIP sweet velvet red couches we will miss you greatly and if you every want to understand the love for the couches you can go visit them at the North Delta dump…or just rub up against Sylvia’s leg.

The End .

Writer’s notes:

No hard feeling Bart, its just a story worth telling. All the best, we will miss you.
Noelene Gagne

Prove me wrong.

I was once younger and more nieve, and dumbfounded in Love with my boyfriend who said "nothing lasts forever" I don't even remember how the conversation started, I don't know what we were doing, all I remember is him saying "nothing lasts forever" over and over in my head. I didn't respond I just starred ahead and was thinking. We went out for 5 1/2 years then it ended and I felt like it was an I told you so in my face.

But I didn't want to believe it I understand that we have many relationships through out our lives and we learn and grow from them. You can't base this statement on a relationship...if we all looked at the stats we would understand. But then as things went on I noticed more and more that all around me things were not lasting forever.

I know we all have to die at sometime but I think I have been to too many funerals! This just makes me understand why nothing lasts forever.

My school ended and friends started parting. My dance ended and we stopped traveling. I changed jobs and it was just different. My family changes often I have been the youngest the oldest and the middle child. I have had many father figures. I have had grandparents and then they were gone...Yet they have not died.

Why when something is so good and makes you so happy does it have to come to an end? Why is it that nothing lasts forever?

And its not that I can't go hang out with those friends or go on other trips, but its not the same. I could call my family and try and make it work. Its hard, Its new, its different, its not the comfort we had before.

Everyday the words "nothing lasts forever" goes through my head. Everyday I fear that its going to be my last with you.

Anyone else melting..?

Man its hot....or as Pedro would say Hout.

My hands are sliding off the key board and at any minute I am afraid I my electrocute myself...

The worst part is I am being taunted by the pool outside my window. The beautiful pool that looks so refreshing that pool...That is not yet opened..talk about torture.

I must go take a cold shower now.

hmmmm can't type well

Shit it only took me five or so times to log onto my blog as I may; have had some drinks tonight.

Not that I can afford to go out and have a good time, but my roommate insisted on treating so we can talk about the always popular subject of boys/men. So I phoned up my guy whom I was seeing the one where I had felt that it was not going to work because I just didn't feel that much needed chemistry or spark if you will. I not so easily advised him that it was not going to work out and Really I feel like shit because of it. I mean I know it wasn't going to work out and that's why it had to be done, but I don't think I have ever had to break up with a guy who was that nice and sincere. The past guys have all gave me very good reasons to kick there ass to the curb (don't cheat I will hurt you). But this guy not so much and I think that's why it was so hard. I had to call most of my friends to get advice because I was pretty much sucking at it. But he seemed to take it well, wait I forgot I lied to him, I felt sooooo bad I didn't want to tell him there was no chemistry so I said there was someone else...OK guys is this wrong would you assuming your a great guy want to be told there is someone else or would you want to be buffed with a little lie saying there was someone else...am I wrong should I have been truthful and said he we have no chemistry and that's that...Shit I should have done that shouldn't I.

Well I never said I was good at this and Its not like getting advice from Shawn or Tammy is that good anyway. Sorry guys...I am wrong your advice is GREAT...Remember I have been drinking many drinks.

Now what, back to square one, I'm so exhausted from dating its hard work and is stressing me out... I would much rather have sex with random (clean) people it may just be easier.

Ok so most of this has not made any sense...I will have to probably delete it later..so if your reading this remember it and consider yourself lucky because it may be gone the next time your here.

Just some mind blowing information

Stats are fun...

Population

Canada: 31,281,092
British Columbia: 197,292
Vancouver: 560,000
Coquitlam: 51,130
Burnaby: 197,292

That's a hole lot of people. Hint hint.

I love this tatty and I am testing trying to put pic's on my blog...so thats why its here 

I'm always right...Aren't I

I am don't argue with me.

I'm just making this harder on myself...

Why is it when we go out with someone be it male or female and we don't have that spark that chemistry that...that thing that you know is missing, why is it so hard to tell them that? Or is it just me are there more people who are heartless and can do this kind of thing? What do you want to here when someone is telling you to basically get the F**K away.

*Sorry it's not you it's me
*I am interested in someone else
*I'm not attracted to you at all

?????????what do I say...Because I have to say something...I tried to use the body language...but who knows if that worked.

People just keep telling me to tell the truth...but really the truth can hurt and this would definitely hurt, it would just show how petty and small I really am and do I need to make someone feel like shit so I can tell the truth?

Yes I am being petty and small and yes I don't want to be with this person. This IS the way I feel and I shouldn't have to justify that...its just the way it is.

Now I wonder who I am trying to convince.

Should we know better?

Questions... with no answers.

Should we know better; some times I wonder why I do things and I wonder why other people do them too. Why is it that half the time we have to learn from our mistakes. Why can't we just be advised on the right way to do things so we don't have to bugger around and figure it out.

Frustration is taking me over!

Putting it all out there

What is a Blog....This is a Blog and this is my Blog and typical to me it has tons of errors throughout...

But I have been keeping this for sometime and I thought it would be a bit more fun to share it with you all...I can't say its all that entertaining because really its not. But its mostly me...

Other People's Kids

Driving over the Alex Fraser Bridge Heading towards New Westminster, Older model pick up truck comes out of Queens Burrow turns the corner and the tail gate falls off his truck and is holding on by what looks like a bungie cord..one little bungie cord at that, tools fly from the back of his truck and sparks are flying as the tailgate drags along the street. Yet this brilliant driver continues on

HOW can you NOT notice your tailgate following along beside your truck on the highway...it was pretty loud as well.

Really how slow are some people...

Do what is right...

Ok so I give advice, I never said it was the right thing to do...

I like to think my head is filled with what is called common sense, and I like to think everything has a solution be it easy or hard. But I have never though I was always right.

With this I would like to add this disclaimer "I think this is what you should do, but ultimately its up to you"

We are only human right.

My weekend End.

So did I do anything exciting this weekend...

Friday: I came home from work and I spoke with Shawn who spoke of going to one of his friends Andrews shows-which seems really cool and I would eventually love to see. Well I didn't end up going and someone else didn't end up with a number - do we call that a bust?

Saturday: Morning I got up and Shawn and I went shopping on 4th, and then to Pacific Center. Goal was to get some new shirts for myself and for Shawn NOT to spend any money. Both goals accomplished although not DT but in Burnaby. Eli Phoned while we were shopping on 4th and Plans were made to hook up later.

Saturday: Night I drove out to Surrey and picked up Eli at his girlfriends house and then we went to Donagoals to eat and drink and visit girlfriend aka Miranda. We soon left and went to the Lion, played some pool and quickly became board and then went to New West to Dan's work "the twist" we left there and headed over to Steves house where video game playing commenced, after this I dropped strange dude?? off at bus stop then Eli at his car and then Dan off in Delta.

Sunday: I need to go grocery shopping long over due, so I pick Shawn up and we go to Stupid Store and I don't know what the deal is with that store but its seems that I always run into former boyfriends or boy toys there (maybe there just thrifty). Sooo Shawn got to meet Shaun, and Shena "Shaun's on again off again girlfriend" who apparently Shawn said was not looking very happy with me. hmmm is someone a bit bitter that I'm amazing...hehe. Once you've had the best the rest just sucks... "Conceded much" Ok so shopping commenced and then we came back to my house played around on the computer went for a walk to Rogers and then back to the COQ why do I feel we did something else ???

So I drop shawn off and call my sister as I am hungry and was thinking dinner. What I had forgot however was that I was supposed to be going to her place anyway for what is called a sip by sip party wine tasting and learning, so I forgot...opps I headed over and we drank wine and got a bit tipsy, I think I will hold a party myself, there isn't a bunch of stuff I would buy its a bit expensive and I think there should be more selection, but it is a brand new company and it is just starting. The web sight is still in the works but check it out it will be up soon www.sipbysip.ca

Well the end of the weekend is now and it went way to fast I don't look forward to going to work tomorrow but I will. Damn work, need money must go...

Practice what I Preach

I now find myself in a sticky situation.

The sad thing is I know what I need to do. I have told people a million times what to do, why can't I follow my own advice.

Ok so I have been dating this guy for about 2 1/2 weeks now and he is super nice, sweet, cute. He treats me like gold and he's funny and we can talk and talk. But I don't really like him. Its hard to say this, I'm kind of stuck on describing what my problem is...

I'm really confused right now. I feel like I am a horrible person because he is so into me it feels really good but I also know that if I don't feel the same way I shouldn't be hanging out with him leading him on. That's just soooo mean, if someone is totally into you you shouldn't have to feel bad because they feel that way. They will be much better off if we let them go so then they can move on and meet the person who is right for them and they won't do that if we are hanging onto them because we feel bad or guilty or we like them a bit but not the right way.

So its pretty clear what needs to be done, I need to cute him lose. This is the best thing to do for everyone. How would I feel If I was going out with someone and they were going along with everything I said because they didn't want to hurt my feelings... Screw that I would rather know!

Don't Hate me, but your the one who made me tell you.

Confused...No that's not it, Anger...No, jealousy...Yes sometimes...Understanding...Yes definitely, But then that makes me say yes to Confusion.

I look at myself today and start to understand what is wrong. I lie way to much, not huge lies but little lies and I think I have been doing this for so long that I now actually start to believe some of them myself. I think I lie to myself even, because this helps in convincing me what should be instead of what it is.

I look at myself and wonder why I am standing still, I hold myself back by holding on to others way to hard. Yes it hurts to lose them, but you can't always get what you want and isn't it better to have Love and lost then to have never to have loved at all.

I am manipulative, I am petty and I am evil. I plot and scheme to hurt my friends. I hurt myself more because of it. Sometimes my power scares me. Look what I have done so far, and don't tell me its not my fault. Everyone knows I had so much to do with everything. Maybe I'm not the one pushing the button but I am defiantly making sure someone is doing it.

Who does what I do? I don't think many people do. Maybe I'm crazy maybe I am sane...But whatever the case I am not happy.

Why do I inflict pain on myself like this, why do I keep going back for more, why can't I control my thoughts and feelings!! How can one person make me feel this way.

I'm not a good person I have done something to you.

My week so far...or what I remember

Monday I was so tired from my weekend I didn't do to much just chatted with my new friend on the phone. (bed at 2:30)

Tuesday Shawn and I went to see Moby and Buck 65 at the Commodore. It was a Great concert. Both artists can put on an amazing show! (bed at 1:45ish)

Wednesday I got off work at 3 and was supposed to go walking with Robyn but when she go to my house she didn't want to go anymore, so we went to Starbucks and picked a movie. We went to see the Ballot of Rose and Jack at Tinstle Town, that was good. It was strange to get out of the theater and it still be daylight out. Robyn and I went for diner on 4th at Sofies..which I now know is way OVER RATED, the portions were way to big and I just didn't like it that much. After coming home I watched Gilmore girls and then went to bed, and my new friend phoned again and we chatted till late. (bed 2:30)

Thursday I was a wreck at work, I could NOT function!! I needed sleep and I needed it bad. So I came home after work and lied on the couch then my buzzer rang and Nicole was here, her, Lauren, Lindsay and I were going out for diner...(if I can even make it) So I change and drag my ass over to Laurens and visit her new Kitten Bear..who is hands down the cutest kitten I have EVER seen. Then we all went off to Los Margaritas, but couldn't get in because of Sinco Demio, so we walked over to Hells Kitchen and had diner there, and I was impressed yum I had the best diner ever and a cold beer to go with it was just right. After that we all loaded into my car and went to the desert place on Alma and Broadway, Lauren and Nicole picked up some O-so-expensive desert and then we all went home (Nicole had a roast in the slow cooker) I was just happy to go home early to bed!!! So I get home and decided to try the computer again and it worked, and then I went to bed...but then my friend called and I was up till 12ish.

So today is Friday and I came right home after work, turned off my phone didn't go on the computer and went right to bed, had a GREAT nap and now im full of energy...well not really, I think I will have an early night.

My weekend...but not this one, Last weekend.

Well as said before I was not able to blog as my computer decided on Sunday night that it was going to stop working. Yes my computer is from the 90's and yes its a P.O.C. but its my link, it gets me my W.W.W. fix...and I need my fix.

So Lets start from Friday (computer worked fine)was having a nice relaxing evening at home, something like tonight (with less naps) and then around 10:30 after I had my walk my sushi and done my laundry...the phone rang. It was Kristyanne she wanted me to pick her up as she was not able to drive. So I go downtown to pick her and her boss up, I drop him off and then we discuss the Roxy..? We came home changed and left, it was pretty late and the U2 concert was that night so DT was just crazy. But she has her connections and she was able to hug our way past the line and in for free. Then we went to her bartender who was super and who treated us to many drinks...That's us and Nickel Back of coarse. Nickel Back was also there and we hung out at the bar with them, shared a couple shots and then we went on our way. I got home at 3:30 that night and must admit was drunk, I had to get up and drive Kristyanne to her car...Ouch!

Saturday after dropping Kristyanne off I drove over to Shawn's to attempt once again to submit my taxes net file style...I was not able to do it but did advance in getting a net file number and I left the job in Shawn's capable hands. We also headed out for some breakfast and a bit of running around as I had to pick up some things before watching my niece and nephew at Shawna's. So I got everything I needed and headed out to Langley...way out in Langley hung out and played with Cole and Saje and had some fun getting Cole to sleep as the poor little guy (7 mths) is teething AND had a cold. But in time he went down...yet another late night, I crashed at Shawna's house and then got up and did some cleaning and had breaky.

Sunday morning, I picked Shawn up at King George Skytrain (Shawn loves Surrey) and then we drove out to the states...We decided to take the peace arch crossing instead of the truck crossing...first mistake. There was a huge line up and it took some time for us to get through. But we did enjoy the entertainment. Yoga traffic Streching lady, We need some more pictures of the grass and the arch Asian Family and friends and the best of all US boarder crossing sticking a towel of drugs into the truck beside us and waiting for the drug dogs to find it...And we have to say...job well done!! So as we finally go across the line we stop at the first out let store...the place is dead...wow it used to thrive on the Canadian Dollar. Well that was lame then we headed off to the next out let, when I don't remember how, who or why but we decided...screw shopping lets drive to Seattle...Wow didn't realize how long of a drive it really was. But we got there and walked around the space needle and decided to go into the EMP (Experiment Music Project) it was quite exciting but I don't fell like I want to get into it..maybe just go check out the web site or go yourself. Then after that we got a bite to eat at Subway and GIANT Starbucks drinks...Giant I say!! Then we went Down Town and walked and walked and walked. We were extremely disappointed in the stores and thought there would be way more cool stuff, even the local un-named gay guy on the side of the street with the cool plugs said there were no good stores.

What to do what to do...Well we walked around and admired the cleanliness of Seattle...and I am not kidding. It looks like the alleys had been scrubbed and the bums had been cleaned. (and given cell phones?) But really it was Clean. So after many hours of that we started to go home, I had to stop in at my step-sisters Birthday in Delta at the Catus Club, then I had to go drop Shawn off then go home change then back to Delta to meet them and then bowling at Excalaber lanes. All in all it was a really good day...but really tiring one as well.

I have to say I had a pretty good weekend. Wish they could all be fun like that, but I am so tired as I haven't been to bed at a decent hour all week as well...see my week blog...

All events listed above may be inaccurate or a bit a-skew as the length of time to write them down has been longer then anticipated. Please do not hold any mistakes against me.

To Love or to Hate....THE DAMN COMPUTER THAT IS...

Ok so I know nothing about how or why computers work all I know is that I had a really great weekend hanging out with nickel Back going to Seattle with Shawn and watching Cole and Saje and wanted to Blog about it but my computer stopped working....I don't have time to write all my stories now, but I think I am up and running again so I will update everything Friday...Really what else do I do on Fridays anyway.

What's the deal with Gay Men and the "C" word?

No really what's the deal with this. If your a gay man does it make it ok to use this word over and over again. As a women I personally am not a big fan of the "C" word. Sure this rant could also apply to the hard core, backcombing Surrey girl, but believe me if I ever use it, I really mean IT and I'm mad!

I don't go flaunting it around in every other sentence...come on really its a nasty word and I don't understand why every gay man I know well, not so well, worked with, danced with, and even my drag queen girls use it like they know of no other words in the English language to use in lieu of this.

Well I feel a bit better now, not really, but who cares I said what I had to say. Nite.

What sound does a Liger make?

Well What sound does a Liger make....

I could tell you better yet I could show you but I don't have the ability to put a sound clip on here. But for those of you who want to know...its a cross between a large cat being smothered and a cow being run over by a car.

But believe me you...it’s only a Liger who could make a call like that. Yes that right!!

Not so uncommon?

So on this blog I use my middle name, just because...

But my given name is Noelene...and here's a funny story.

I was at work Monday morning crazy as always and I received the first phone call of what I did not know at the time was going to be the beginning of many..."Your cutting your hair", "Your going to U2", "I didn't know you liked U2 THAT much" and on and on.

Turns out Monday morning on 99.3 the Fox someone (not me) also by the name of Noelene phoned in and was going to be getting her hair cut by the DJ in order to get U2 tickets.

Well I guess its kind of cool to have a not so common name. Could you imagine if a Shawn or a Sarah phoned in...man I would have to hire a detective before I knew who to call.

"GCT" AKA Girls Camping Trip

Friday I had to put my acting skills to work, as to make it to the girls camping trip I would need to phone work and let them know I would not be able to come in Friday as I was ill "GCT kind of ill" So after winning my Oscar... Lindsay picked me up in the bug and we loaded the car and off we go to Boston bar...well after a stop or 5 ...

Destination Boston Bar, 1st stop Fruits, Veggies and Meat in Delta, 2nd stop propane at the local hardware store, 3rd stop...Sun Screen, 4th stop Lindsays rents place for golf umbrellas, 5th Stop...Starbucks and then we are on our way Wait..6th Stop Gas and Ice... OK now we are on our way.

So we followed the map and then the signs the girls left for us and we made it up in great time. We set up camp and then basked in the sun. There were 12 of us this year and I have to say Andrea (organizer) is great, we played Crockett and pictinary we had arts and crafts and we had way to much food to go around. Lets just say we camped in some major style...minues the nasty nasty out house...by the last day it was everything I could do not to puke!!

Old Friends

Sarah is in town!!!!

This is my best friend from 3rd grade. She now takes residence in Wales with her fiancé James "we love James". But bottom line is we do not get to see each other enough. We hooked up last Wednesday night and had diner on Robson. But I haven't been able to see her again since, she went to visit her rents in Powel River this weekend and this next weekend I will be out of town, sucks that she is here for only a short time.

In October Her and James will be getting married. I am going out to witness this wonderful event...but one thing after another is making it harder and harder for me to make it there. I have a decent job, I make decent money...but I think I have a problem, I am always always in DEBT!!! Help me go to my Best Friends Wedding! Any suggestions on what I am doing wrong...or how to pay off Revenue Canada, MSP and stop getting my car towed and all these surprise bills.

Goal...get to Wales, save the funds!

We have what's left of April, and then just 5 months...can I do it?

I have to.

So much to do so little time.

This weekend went way to fast.

Friday after picking up my towed car...see "no luck, bad luck" I went down to the DLP to hook up with my girl Simone. Wow I haven't seen her in ages! It was great to hang out and just catch up, I'm so glad to see her happy again, she deserves it! So we kicked it at the DLP and I ran into Brad AKA back flip Brad (you will have to go house boating to understand that one) had a quick chat and went on his way. Simone and I finished up and she went to meet her boe, so it ended earlier then I thought, and I went back to my car and phoned Shawn, he was hooking up with Shanell, so he was busy, then I phoned Tammy and she didn't answer...wow its way to early to go home, so I phoned Robyn to see what she was up to...after all I was in her hood. But of course she was in Richmond...WTF...so I drive out and meet her, Michelle and Amy at the Keg and then we all decide to go to the River Rock Casino. I walk away even and Robyn win's $208 nice job. After that we all head home.

Saturday morning I get up with no motivation what so ever....Dragging my ass knowing I have to go do laundry, don't want to make the drive to White Rock, but I do and stop and have coffee with Robyn along the way, we went and checked out some shops and then I left and went to my maa's to do the laundry. Kind of different there as she has a boarder now, so I didn't want to go down and use the computer as she was down there and I just ended up sitting looking at the wall, wow this was exciting. I was supposed to be hooking up with Eli tonight but he is unpredictable and who knows when he will cancel on you. So I was making my alternate fall back plans and then I got the call, I ended up meeting up with Eli and Dan and Todd at Woodys to watch some UFC, and I also ended up getting a bit drunk, so Robyn picked me up and we headed over to the Cat and the Fiddle where we hooked up with her friend Nicole and company, I did some sobering up on the very cold patio and then Robyn drove me back to Woodys to pick up my car. I phoned Shawn and went over to his place, we watch some cartoon network and then fell asleep.

Sunday Morning we did some Tim's some Walmart and some Super Store, then I headed back to Delta to meet up with Lindsay to plan our Girls camping trip.."what to bring, what to bring" "don't forget the portable hot tub" Mrs. Jeffs made us some pancakes and we planned away, then I headed off to my ma's to pick up my laundry. Came home met Tammy and worked on her Body Flow tapes, then met up with Shawn again and saw Sin City. I highly recommend it by the way...Although my gag reflex acted up a couple times.

All and all that was my weekend. Not to exciting, but hey I didn't say it would be.

If it wasn't for my bad luck I would have no luck at all.

Thursday after work I decided it was a Shawn stocking day as I had not seen him in some time (boy is to busy making friends all over town) So I went to his house after work, lucky for me he was there even after phoning to confirm because stocking Shawn isn't really stocking its just advising that we are doing something not asking him if he wants to or not. So as I arrive at his house we decide we are both hungry and could use a bit to eat. Me being on very limited funds was thinking food fair. So we took off to Metro Town and had some Opa. Buggered about the mall for a bit and then headed back to his place and funked around making music. Not before long Shawn's ADD kicked in and music became bed time. So we lied in bed and I contemplated leaving. But he said if your quite its ok...but I wasn't tired. So I ended up laying there anyway...I'm a sucker what can I say. So as time ticks by I here cars out side going back and forth the car alarms on and off and I fall in and out of sleep. So 11pm rolls around and I jump out of bed and say, I'm going home. So I leave, go down stairs and ....Shit I forgot to put the pass in my car, those bastards towed me. AHHHHH So I call the number and double check, yep they got my car and it will cost me $85 to get it back, but wait I'm dirt broke and pay day isn't till tomorrow. F**K...So I ring Shawn, "I got towed" I head back up stairs mad mad mad at myself...how could I forget to put the pass in my car..AHHH. So I grab a blanket and go to sleep on the couch, I phone Michelle and she said she will pick me up at skytrain tomorrow and then drive me to my car. Thank you Michelle! So I can't really sleep because I am kicking myself for being soooo stupid. But eventually I fall asleep and Neil and Shawn wake me up at 5 in the morning...oh so tired. I crawl into Shawns bed and get some more sleep after they both leave. Wow what fun I get to go to work wearing the SAME thing as yesterday...Only me.

A Friend or Foe?

Lately I have been pushing myself away from a friend of mine whom I will not mention a name, aww WTF...its Steve. Really I don't know what to think of this person anymore. Well now that I look back I realize that maybe I was being naive in thinking he was my friend in the first place. Ok so tell me if I am over reacting.
Scenario number… 1) I am at Robyn's house helping build furniture after she has moved into her new place in "Surrey" when Steve goes to take a picture of the build and some how (I don't feel its necessary to go into details) I fell and Fractured my elbow "Ouch". So I had drove Steve and myself to Robyns, I drive a stick, I fractured my right arm also known as my shifting arm and I think I may have been in some kind of shock. Anyway know one was offering to help or take me to the hospital so I had to get Steve to drive my car there. The whole time he went on and on about how he has to get up early and such, so I said Steve you can just drop me at the hospital and drive my car back to your house and I can pick it up later. But when we got to SMH it was an 8-hour wait. So I called up another friend who was awesome and took me to a better hospital and made sure I was taken care off. So Steve could get his car. 2) Ok maybe I'm just being a whiner, but a couple week ago I got all my wisdom teeth out and I was hurting pretty bad. As I type at this very minute I still have a numb chin from nerve damage. Anyway Robyn had been very nice and dropped me off and picked me up and took care of me. Well Robyn was going back to work and Steve had asked me if I would like to hang out with him tomorrow. I am on drugs and can't drive but can hang out...(he new this)...anyway the next day he give me a call and says he wants to go to Langley and shop. I said sure that sounds fun, he said ok can you meet me there. I was like "Steve I can't drive" then he was like oh.....well I guess I will hang out with you another day. WTF...ok I was staying at my moms house at the time in WHITE ROCK....15 minutes away from Langley....really how hard would it have been to pick me up!!! 3) Well this is the straw that broke the camel's back. Saturday Steve, Robyn a few others and myself went to a BBQ for Chris and Hailys, wedding party. I was wearing a skirt. While talking to some people Steve took his digital camera and took a picture...UP my skirt. Ok are we 12. I was upset and humiliated that he would do this and when I turn around Robyn is there too and she didn't even stop him...I was totally disappointed. I told Robyn I was upset knowing that she would tell Steve and still know apology. I don't know....I just don't think its worth it anymore...or am I just not able to take a joke?

Thank you for your visitssss

My best friend that I have know since 3rd grade has come home to visit. She lives in Wales with her "James". So Sarah, Shannon, Rebecca and I went out for diner to Cactus club on Robson. We caught up on missed time together and chatted about some girlie gossip. All in all I had a great time it was fun to see my friend again. After Cactus we went over to Aundra's place (Rebecca's Friend) and we visited with them and there very cute puppy De'Aggo. After all that wonderful fun we had we all heading home. Not to exciting...but this is what happened.

Sick, sick and maybe a concert

Wow I new I wasn't feeling well the other day but it has totally hit me now. I have no voice and anyone who knows me knows that is hard. I don't think it helped that I went to a concert last night. But in my defense, I didn't scream or anything only violent clapping took place.

The concert was at the Commodore Ballroom and the headliner was Soundtrack of our lives...can't say how they are live because the truth is we went to see one of the opening acts. The Dears from Montreal. They were really different. I did enjoy them and recommend getting there CD.

Worlds are colliding

My worlds are colliding. I have many different groups of friends and I can't seem to work it out where the boundaries are not crossed. I don't know if anyone else knows what I am talking about. But I have lost a few friends to other friends. I feel that I have to keep some of my friends apart out of fear of losing them. I never used to feel this way, I used to think the more the merrier....I'm not sure when or what happened to change this? But the fact of the matter is I find myself lying and making up stories so one friend of mine can't hang out with another of mine. I fear them getting to close and leaving me out. How totally selfish is that!!! Maybe it was when my boyfriend and I of 5 years spilt...and I lost a lot of friends and that hurt and I'm scared of having that happen again.

Tragedy

I went to work in a better mood then usual. Started my day with a coffee and off I went. But I didn't realize at the time the tragedy that had occurred. A friend, coworker and a good person lost her brother this weekend. It's a hush in the office not many know, but its all in the papers and its easy enough to put the puzzle together. I call this a tragedy because this family is being ripped apart by someone pointing a gun and ending someone's life...Just like that. I didn't know her brother, but I didn't need to to understand the love that she had for her. I also have a brother and in know way are we as close as they were. I can't even begin to image what she is going through. This is a horrible tragedy that should not have happened. My prayers are with the family.