Pain in the FEET

Oh my god my feet hurt, they really really hurt. I wonder how much walking I did today? I am in Calgary at a Vender event and I have never walked so much in my life! Oh the pain, I should have got my gellins!

NEW CAR

Yeah me, I got my new car!!! It’s about time I have to say! Literally one week before I was supposed to get my new car my muffler on my old car fell off. It’s the trade in people, how are you supposed to trade in your old car when the muffler is dragging along the ground and you have a new car fragrance that is also know as exhaust. So I had to get it fixed $$ that sucked. Then when I went to pick up my NEW 2007 VW Golf standard, cruise, power everything, ac, tilt, heated seats and more and they only gave me a half tank of gas!!! HALF TANK what the fuck is that! I just bought a new car!!! You think you could give me a Full Tank! So after picking my car up on Saturday I watched it sit in the parking lot all day on Sunday as I didn’t want to waist any gas as I am now currently broke from putting down my first payment and paying ICBC all my money. But I love my car!

Monday Night Madness

Monday seems to be THE night to watch TV it has every show back to back to back! Just getting the new season lined up. So tonight we have Prison Break can you say...Wentworth Miller!! Then there is Hero's, more a Paul show then me. Then my fav is 24 you know it’s a good show when you don't even need hot men to hold your attention.

Off TV for a minute I have 9 new Sid Dickens plaques and they are Beautiful! I hung them over my ugly ass blue couch, and I am sitting on my ugly ass white couch looking at them...have I mentioned I need some new furniture. I found the couch I wanted and I wrote about it in my blog along time ago however I found another couch that I love even better but its even more money.. go figure. So as I have the new laptop and the new car I don't think I will be getting the new couch any time soon.

I had my first day of work in my new position and can I say...Work it baby, work it. Yeah that’s right it was a crazy work out today as my new desk that happens to be upstairs did not yet have my computer and my old desk...down stairs did and I was working with my new team AND my old team...so this required many trips up and down the stairs so like I said work it baby, work it! But all is good because by 5:30pm they finally moved my computer up stairs and I was ready to go.....home.

not possilbe

I don't think that it would have been possible for me to do less then I did today...I still have not changed out of my pj's. I have not had a shower and if I am going to be honest I have not brushed my teeth yet today. I did nothing but sit on my ass and watch tv, and i even did that half ass, i was to lazy to change the chanel so I was stuck on one chanel for 5 hours straigt...it was TBS so I watched movie after movie I don't even remember what movies they were, here is what i remember, mean girls, cheeper by the dozzen, the wedding planner and i am pretty sure there was something before that but i can't remember what it was... I did manage to order pizza for dinner however i didn't order it via phone...my laptop was closer and therefore i ordered it online. Are you beginging to truley see the depth or lazyness that was incured today...

its not like my whole weekend was like this it was just Sunday I don't know why either...maybe because i have been burning the candles at both ends for work and freinds and i just wanted a day to do nothing...and now i have done it. Friday i went to a hanky panky sex party where I spent way to much money on stuff... actually I wanted so much stuff I ended up booking my own party so I can get some hostes gifts. If you are a close personal friend look forward to an invite. Anyways I got the coolest thing, its a candle that burns at low heat and then you poor all the wax over your body or over your partners body and its like an oil - i havn't used it yet but i am pretty excited. Saturday Paul and I did a bit of a clean up in the appartment and then we met up with Rudy and Emmy for dinner and bowling. We went to the spagati factory ( i havnen't been there forever!!) and i now remember why, its not that great and its packed with familys! Well after that we went bowling and it started off good with me getting a X but then I got a few / and it went down hill from there - hey I never said i was a good bowler.

So the weekend wasn't a total bust as i did go out...I think everyone is deserving of a day of doing nothing every so often as long as its not a regualr thing.

Can't Sleep

Well its 11:31 and I can't fall asleep and it’s bugging the heck out of me because I have a long day tomorrow at work. I have to be there early and stay late, so all I want to do is sleep but I can't get to sleep! Maybe it’s because I ate to late or maybe it’s because my bf is tragic at gift giving... I was lying in bed and all I could think about was what he just gave me for an early V-day present. Yes I know "it’s the thoughts that counts" and believe me almost every time I get a gift I say that in my head...but I suck at holding back.

If there is anything I need to learn its holding back, can one be "too blunt"? I like the "gift" I would like it more in someone else’s house. Some times I feel like I am living a Simpsons cartoon – you know when Homer buys Marge the bowling ball – but it keeps happening. Two years of gift giving for Birthdays, Anniversaries, Valentines Day, Christmas...tragic tragic tragic. It hasn’t been all bad there was one time that was really good – that was my last birthday and it was sheets for the bed (yes I was excited about sheets) but I think I understand now that even when you say “honey I would like ...” its still doesn’t work because you end up with a giant rock that’s hollowed out and has a light bulb stuck in the middle of it, but hey its supposed to get rid of negative energy...hmm not sure if its working.

The weekend is over

Well it was too short yet again! I didn't do to much but let me tell you about it. Friday I left work late (big projects - big changes) then met up with Lindsay and Derek at the cheese and had dinner then went home. All I could think about was going to bed as I am still fighting this cold off. So I had a little sleep in Saturday morning that was much needed, then Paul and I met up with James and Paul did some set ups on James's new laptop...so me James and my mom all have new laptops...fun fun. After some computer set ups we headed out to Surrey to hang out, we ordered some pizza and watched the game...got home super late and had a nice sleep again. Sunday I met up with Bernice and had brunch then some dersert it was some good eats! Now I am just playing around with all these new and different programs on my computer...i love the new laptop! Have I said that before.

Still SICK

I am still sick and hating it. I hate walking around with my mouth half open just so I can breath, DAMIT! But as you can tell I am not bitter by it. I see all those healthy people walking around town with their fancy trick of breathing through their nose - could you rub it in anymore!

Have I mentioned I LOVE my new laptop (yes i know its not a mac) but I still love it anyway, similar to your mom loving you even if you were a bastard child. I have been catching up on Paul's my world pod casts and I am doing this backwards....Have to say possibly not the best plan, I should try and find where I left off and go from there...but it was so long ago I figure it would take way to long to find it.

The sun is pushing through!!

a whole lot of new

So its a NEW Year and I am typing on my new laptop and waiting for my new car to be built! and starting my New job soon. I am soooo happy I have my own laptop now!! No more getting all my web pages deleted by Paul everytime he wants to update his computer AND now I can stay on the computer as long as I want as when Paul goes to bed I can move to a different room!! Sweet! Yes its not the Mac i wanted but hell this was WAY cheeper and it does the job that it needs to do.

My car is on the assembly line as we speek and I am sooo excited I don't know if I can wait much longer or if my current car will even last much longer. I can't wait to be able to drive to and from work and not have to worry about anything...other then random drivers who may hit me. My new job (same company) starts on the 19th of this month so I am excited about that as its a great oppurtunity and its allowing me to buy a new car a new laptop and a new wardrobe!! I also have a New cold this is why I am at home right now.

Can it be done?

I read this comment on CL R&R and it made me think…and that’s always a bit scary;

Seriously. What a retarded, stupid, moronic discussion. Are you just a penis with a guy attached to it? No. You're a human being. I have women friends. Why? I like them. We have fun and talk and hang out. I have man friends. Why? I like them. We have fun and talk and hang out. Are you such a one-dimensional idi-fuckin-it that you can't understand that you are human first and male SECOND?

That's right, baby. It's just a sex organ. It's not your ontology. (Go look it up).

WHAT THE HELL; Can it be done?

Have you ever met that girl who hangs out with the boys and I’m not talking about the Tom Boy “girl” I’m talking about people like me I’m a girly girl, I have tons of girl friends and they are FABULOUS but I like hanging with the boys. Of course there are more me’s out there that like to hang with the boys, however everyone has their own motive for doing it, like the trigger comment above “I like them” could it be just that simple. I don’t think it is just that simple because if it were then there wouldn’t be 30 plus posts attacking the guy who said he won’t have girl friends as “friends”.

How many different levels of relationships are out there? Friends, friends from a break up, fuck friends, friends with benefits when not in other relations, friends from the old days, friends with attraction, friends who just like them, who really knows everyone has their own reason.

For me boys as friends goes back quite a few years however when I look back I honestly don’t see that I got a lot of really good relationships out of all this friends for whatever reason. Believe me I have listed a few and there are way more and I have to say I have very few friends left after the fact. Could this be truly because it can’t be done or is it just something I am doing…

Ever since I hit high school I found it much easier to just hang with the boys. The best reason for this back then was not so much “drama” now a days I can’t say that’s the same reason I hang with the boys because let me tell you they have their fair share of the “drama”. Shawn – I am talking about you!

Who knows if I can come to any conclusion to why most of my friendships have ended with these guys maybe it’s because of me or maybe the friendship just fizzled. However I bet if I really delve into this I would find a reason, however I don’t know if that’s what I really want out of this.

I didn’t just hang out with the boys I had girl friends and I went through lots of those too. However I have some solid ones by my side today. When I think back I remember tons of names with some wild stories that I dare not tell and then I think of name of some amazing people and think wow I wish I still had them in my life.

DM childhood boyfriend, turned school friend, turned nothing (I moved away)

CT, crush turned to a first kiss (I moved away)

CR, used to help him try and pick up girls, turned to my first real kiss

IS, tutor turned boyfriend, never heard from again

KO, I like to block this from my memory (not sure what that was…my first grad)

DB, boyfriend, turned friend, turned make out friend, turned friend with benefits, had kid with someone – we all move on.

CL, friend turned boyfriend, turned cheater, turned tried to be friends, turned hook ups as the years pass, turned random phone call up dates

KH, rebound turned biggest guy I ever met :O, turned talk to ever so often

SR, co-worker for two years, turned confident as his girlfriend fucked around with my boyfriend (CL), turned boyfriend, turned to going our own paths after a year, turned to friends for awhile, then gradually the phone calls didn’t get answered on my end and they stopped being made on his end

MB, co-worker turned friend, no attraction, always thought he was gay as never tried anything ever, was awesome to hang out with listened to me and gave great advice….drifted apart, random phone calls

SF, good friend, go shopping hang out, then he got married – don’t see so much anymore

MH, another (not sure what I was doing phase)

M?, word of mouth…

SC, co-worker turned friend, turned to finger licking good, turned to friends, turned to councilor, turned to friends most of the time, turned to friends that like to just hang out

PL – boyfriend period.

Hmmm, this really didn’t answer any of my questions at all, I was hoping to find a deeper understanding of myself and open new doors to new long lasting relations…who am I kidding I haven’t even listed half the people I know on this list this only proves…