Addictions

I think I have developed a new addiction. I have been waking up every morning and kind of thinking of it. Then I get ready for work or my day and all I can do is think of what it will do to me when I have it and how happy I will be afterwards.

Now I never thought I would be the type to start with this addiction as I never really thought my family had an addictive personality and I didn’t think anything was passed down to me. But then I stepped back and took a look.

That’s when it hit me – I’m dead wrong. My mom smoked for 10+ years my grandma smoked for 20+ years. My dad likes to hit the bottle and my brother well he likes Mary Jane. My sister is border line I am not sure if I would call it an addiction or OCD but I have never seen anyone be as fineness freaky as her. So like I said after stepping back and taking a good look and realizing really how wrong I was. I thought shit – I need it and I need it now.

I can’t continue on with out it anymore and if I don’t have it I know I will have a bad day! I just can’t function with out it. I never started at a young age It has only been coming into my life on and off for the last 3 years. It’s just so easy to come by now and there are so many different kinds the options are really endless.

I don’t think I can stop… am I going to start shaking if I do? Who would ever think one think could control so many of my thoughts…I never wanted to be trendy or follow the crowd. Can I please have a Grande non-fat Vanilla latte, not to hot.

Close your eyes and just taste it…