Staying in a relationship

Have you ever stayed in a relationship longer then you should have? I wouldn’t believe half the people who said no. I think my problem is I am a Libra and if you know any Libra’s you know they try and make everything work, everyone get along and everyone happy. The problem with being wired this way is you end up attracting people who need to be taken care of, nurtured and mothered. And lets face it no women wants to mother her boyfriend... that doesn’t make us feel sexy... no it makes us think why can’t we date someone who is more of a man. I need to focus on me, not everyone else, I need to make me work, me be the best I can be. I was driving in the car today and I remembered something Sarah said to me a while back... she said “Noelene, stop volunteering, this is ridicules how can you do this for these people when you are barley getting by yourself?” I took it to heart and she was right, I was volunteering for stuff thinking I could help, but I couldn’t because I first needed to help myself. I think that saying rings true in many things, you can’t help others until you can help yourself, and you can’t love others until you love yourself!! So where does this leave me ... unhappy. Needing to take action?

Start with a small goal

I am going to set a personal goal of more blogging for me. I think it’s good for me as when in high stress I need to write it down or talk it out and I find I am more honest when writing into a blank white page opposed to going to the therapist. I don’t know why but I always feel the need to say I am doing better then I actually am when talking to the therapist... Yes I see a therapist, ever since I had my first mental breakdown at work... apparently its fairly normal to have a breakdown at some point in your life... If I had known that before my breakdown it may have been easier to deal with. So as a way to help myself move and grow I will blog, however it may be tricky as the problems I have are high stress situations that are work related and as my work has a blogging policy (I can’t blog about work), I am not sure what I will blog about. I guess I could still blog about all the crap that goes on at work and I can use different names and a different work, however I think that may just be more trouble then its worth. Ok people hold me accountable for my goal.