What's the deal with Gay Men and the "C" word?

No really what's the deal with this. If your a gay man does it make it ok to use this word over and over again. As a women I personally am not a big fan of the "C" word. Sure this rant could also apply to the hard core, backcombing Surrey girl, but believe me if I ever use it, I really mean IT and I'm mad!

I don't go flaunting it around in every other sentence...come on really its a nasty word and I don't understand why every gay man I know well, not so well, worked with, danced with, and even my drag queen girls use it like they know of no other words in the English language to use in lieu of this.

Well I feel a bit better now, not really, but who cares I said what I had to say. Nite.

What sound does a Liger make?

Well What sound does a Liger make....

I could tell you better yet I could show you but I don't have the ability to put a sound clip on here. But for those of you who want to know...its a cross between a large cat being smothered and a cow being run over by a car.

But believe me you...it’s only a Liger who could make a call like that. Yes that right!!

Not so uncommon?

So on this blog I use my middle name, just because...

But my given name is Noelene...and here's a funny story.

I was at work Monday morning crazy as always and I received the first phone call of what I did not know at the time was going to be the beginning of many..."Your cutting your hair", "Your going to U2", "I didn't know you liked U2 THAT much" and on and on.

Turns out Monday morning on 99.3 the Fox someone (not me) also by the name of Noelene phoned in and was going to be getting her hair cut by the DJ in order to get U2 tickets.

Well I guess its kind of cool to have a not so common name. Could you imagine if a Shawn or a Sarah phoned in...man I would have to hire a detective before I knew who to call.

"GCT" AKA Girls Camping Trip

Friday I had to put my acting skills to work, as to make it to the girls camping trip I would need to phone work and let them know I would not be able to come in Friday as I was ill "GCT kind of ill" So after winning my Oscar... Lindsay picked me up in the bug and we loaded the car and off we go to Boston bar...well after a stop or 5 ...

Destination Boston Bar, 1st stop Fruits, Veggies and Meat in Delta, 2nd stop propane at the local hardware store, 3rd stop...Sun Screen, 4th stop Lindsays rents place for golf umbrellas, 5th Stop...Starbucks and then we are on our way Wait..6th Stop Gas and Ice... OK now we are on our way.

So we followed the map and then the signs the girls left for us and we made it up in great time. We set up camp and then basked in the sun. There were 12 of us this year and I have to say Andrea (organizer) is great, we played Crockett and pictinary we had arts and crafts and we had way to much food to go around. Lets just say we camped in some major style...minues the nasty nasty out house...by the last day it was everything I could do not to puke!!

Old Friends

Sarah is in town!!!!

This is my best friend from 3rd grade. She now takes residence in Wales with her fiancé James "we love James". But bottom line is we do not get to see each other enough. We hooked up last Wednesday night and had diner on Robson. But I haven't been able to see her again since, she went to visit her rents in Powel River this weekend and this next weekend I will be out of town, sucks that she is here for only a short time.

In October Her and James will be getting married. I am going out to witness this wonderful event...but one thing after another is making it harder and harder for me to make it there. I have a decent job, I make decent money...but I think I have a problem, I am always always in DEBT!!! Help me go to my Best Friends Wedding! Any suggestions on what I am doing wrong...or how to pay off Revenue Canada, MSP and stop getting my car towed and all these surprise bills.

Goal...get to Wales, save the funds!

We have what's left of April, and then just 5 months...can I do it?

I have to.

So much to do so little time.

This weekend went way to fast.

Friday after picking up my towed car...see "no luck, bad luck" I went down to the DLP to hook up with my girl Simone. Wow I haven't seen her in ages! It was great to hang out and just catch up, I'm so glad to see her happy again, she deserves it! So we kicked it at the DLP and I ran into Brad AKA back flip Brad (you will have to go house boating to understand that one) had a quick chat and went on his way. Simone and I finished up and she went to meet her boe, so it ended earlier then I thought, and I went back to my car and phoned Shawn, he was hooking up with Shanell, so he was busy, then I phoned Tammy and she didn't answer...wow its way to early to go home, so I phoned Robyn to see what she was up to...after all I was in her hood. But of course she was in Richmond...WTF...so I drive out and meet her, Michelle and Amy at the Keg and then we all decide to go to the River Rock Casino. I walk away even and Robyn win's $208 nice job. After that we all head home.

Saturday morning I get up with no motivation what so ever....Dragging my ass knowing I have to go do laundry, don't want to make the drive to White Rock, but I do and stop and have coffee with Robyn along the way, we went and checked out some shops and then I left and went to my maa's to do the laundry. Kind of different there as she has a boarder now, so I didn't want to go down and use the computer as she was down there and I just ended up sitting looking at the wall, wow this was exciting. I was supposed to be hooking up with Eli tonight but he is unpredictable and who knows when he will cancel on you. So I was making my alternate fall back plans and then I got the call, I ended up meeting up with Eli and Dan and Todd at Woodys to watch some UFC, and I also ended up getting a bit drunk, so Robyn picked me up and we headed over to the Cat and the Fiddle where we hooked up with her friend Nicole and company, I did some sobering up on the very cold patio and then Robyn drove me back to Woodys to pick up my car. I phoned Shawn and went over to his place, we watch some cartoon network and then fell asleep.

Sunday Morning we did some Tim's some Walmart and some Super Store, then I headed back to Delta to meet up with Lindsay to plan our Girls camping trip.."what to bring, what to bring" "don't forget the portable hot tub" Mrs. Jeffs made us some pancakes and we planned away, then I headed off to my ma's to pick up my laundry. Came home met Tammy and worked on her Body Flow tapes, then met up with Shawn again and saw Sin City. I highly recommend it by the way...Although my gag reflex acted up a couple times.

All and all that was my weekend. Not to exciting, but hey I didn't say it would be.

If it wasn't for my bad luck I would have no luck at all.

Thursday after work I decided it was a Shawn stocking day as I had not seen him in some time (boy is to busy making friends all over town) So I went to his house after work, lucky for me he was there even after phoning to confirm because stocking Shawn isn't really stocking its just advising that we are doing something not asking him if he wants to or not. So as I arrive at his house we decide we are both hungry and could use a bit to eat. Me being on very limited funds was thinking food fair. So we took off to Metro Town and had some Opa. Buggered about the mall for a bit and then headed back to his place and funked around making music. Not before long Shawn's ADD kicked in and music became bed time. So we lied in bed and I contemplated leaving. But he said if your quite its ok...but I wasn't tired. So I ended up laying there anyway...I'm a sucker what can I say. So as time ticks by I here cars out side going back and forth the car alarms on and off and I fall in and out of sleep. So 11pm rolls around and I jump out of bed and say, I'm going home. So I leave, go down stairs and ....Shit I forgot to put the pass in my car, those bastards towed me. AHHHHH So I call the number and double check, yep they got my car and it will cost me $85 to get it back, but wait I'm dirt broke and pay day isn't till tomorrow. F**K...So I ring Shawn, "I got towed" I head back up stairs mad mad mad at myself...how could I forget to put the pass in my car..AHHH. So I grab a blanket and go to sleep on the couch, I phone Michelle and she said she will pick me up at skytrain tomorrow and then drive me to my car. Thank you Michelle! So I can't really sleep because I am kicking myself for being soooo stupid. But eventually I fall asleep and Neil and Shawn wake me up at 5 in the morning...oh so tired. I crawl into Shawns bed and get some more sleep after they both leave. Wow what fun I get to go to work wearing the SAME thing as yesterday...Only me.

A Friend or Foe?

Lately I have been pushing myself away from a friend of mine whom I will not mention a name, aww WTF...its Steve. Really I don't know what to think of this person anymore. Well now that I look back I realize that maybe I was being naive in thinking he was my friend in the first place. Ok so tell me if I am over reacting.
Scenario number… 1) I am at Robyn's house helping build furniture after she has moved into her new place in "Surrey" when Steve goes to take a picture of the build and some how (I don't feel its necessary to go into details) I fell and Fractured my elbow "Ouch". So I had drove Steve and myself to Robyns, I drive a stick, I fractured my right arm also known as my shifting arm and I think I may have been in some kind of shock. Anyway know one was offering to help or take me to the hospital so I had to get Steve to drive my car there. The whole time he went on and on about how he has to get up early and such, so I said Steve you can just drop me at the hospital and drive my car back to your house and I can pick it up later. But when we got to SMH it was an 8-hour wait. So I called up another friend who was awesome and took me to a better hospital and made sure I was taken care off. So Steve could get his car. 2) Ok maybe I'm just being a whiner, but a couple week ago I got all my wisdom teeth out and I was hurting pretty bad. As I type at this very minute I still have a numb chin from nerve damage. Anyway Robyn had been very nice and dropped me off and picked me up and took care of me. Well Robyn was going back to work and Steve had asked me if I would like to hang out with him tomorrow. I am on drugs and can't drive but can hang out...(he new this)...anyway the next day he give me a call and says he wants to go to Langley and shop. I said sure that sounds fun, he said ok can you meet me there. I was like "Steve I can't drive" then he was like oh.....well I guess I will hang out with you another day. WTF...ok I was staying at my moms house at the time in WHITE ROCK....15 minutes away from Langley....really how hard would it have been to pick me up!!! 3) Well this is the straw that broke the camel's back. Saturday Steve, Robyn a few others and myself went to a BBQ for Chris and Hailys, wedding party. I was wearing a skirt. While talking to some people Steve took his digital camera and took a picture...UP my skirt. Ok are we 12. I was upset and humiliated that he would do this and when I turn around Robyn is there too and she didn't even stop him...I was totally disappointed. I told Robyn I was upset knowing that she would tell Steve and still know apology. I don't know....I just don't think its worth it anymore...or am I just not able to take a joke?

Thank you for your visitssss

My best friend that I have know since 3rd grade has come home to visit. She lives in Wales with her "James". So Sarah, Shannon, Rebecca and I went out for diner to Cactus club on Robson. We caught up on missed time together and chatted about some girlie gossip. All in all I had a great time it was fun to see my friend again. After Cactus we went over to Aundra's place (Rebecca's Friend) and we visited with them and there very cute puppy De'Aggo. After all that wonderful fun we had we all heading home. Not to exciting...but this is what happened.

Sick, sick and maybe a concert

Wow I new I wasn't feeling well the other day but it has totally hit me now. I have no voice and anyone who knows me knows that is hard. I don't think it helped that I went to a concert last night. But in my defense, I didn't scream or anything only violent clapping took place.

The concert was at the Commodore Ballroom and the headliner was Soundtrack of our lives...can't say how they are live because the truth is we went to see one of the opening acts. The Dears from Montreal. They were really different. I did enjoy them and recommend getting there CD.

Worlds are colliding

My worlds are colliding. I have many different groups of friends and I can't seem to work it out where the boundaries are not crossed. I don't know if anyone else knows what I am talking about. But I have lost a few friends to other friends. I feel that I have to keep some of my friends apart out of fear of losing them. I never used to feel this way, I used to think the more the merrier....I'm not sure when or what happened to change this? But the fact of the matter is I find myself lying and making up stories so one friend of mine can't hang out with another of mine. I fear them getting to close and leaving me out. How totally selfish is that!!! Maybe it was when my boyfriend and I of 5 years spilt...and I lost a lot of friends and that hurt and I'm scared of having that happen again.

Tragedy

I went to work in a better mood then usual. Started my day with a coffee and off I went. But I didn't realize at the time the tragedy that had occurred. A friend, coworker and a good person lost her brother this weekend. It's a hush in the office not many know, but its all in the papers and its easy enough to put the puzzle together. I call this a tragedy because this family is being ripped apart by someone pointing a gun and ending someone's life...Just like that. I didn't know her brother, but I didn't need to to understand the love that she had for her. I also have a brother and in know way are we as close as they were. I can't even begin to image what she is going through. This is a horrible tragedy that should not have happened. My prayers are with the family.