hmmmm can't type well

Shit it only took me five or so times to log onto my blog as I may; have had some drinks tonight.

Not that I can afford to go out and have a good time, but my roommate insisted on treating so we can talk about the always popular subject of boys/men. So I phoned up my guy whom I was seeing the one where I had felt that it was not going to work because I just didn't feel that much needed chemistry or spark if you will. I not so easily advised him that it was not going to work out and Really I feel like shit because of it. I mean I know it wasn't going to work out and that's why it had to be done, but I don't think I have ever had to break up with a guy who was that nice and sincere. The past guys have all gave me very good reasons to kick there ass to the curb (don't cheat I will hurt you). But this guy not so much and I think that's why it was so hard. I had to call most of my friends to get advice because I was pretty much sucking at it. But he seemed to take it well, wait I forgot I lied to him, I felt sooooo bad I didn't want to tell him there was no chemistry so I said there was someone else...OK guys is this wrong would you assuming your a great guy want to be told there is someone else or would you want to be buffed with a little lie saying there was someone else...am I wrong should I have been truthful and said he we have no chemistry and that's that...Shit I should have done that shouldn't I.

Well I never said I was good at this and Its not like getting advice from Shawn or Tammy is that good anyway. Sorry guys...I am wrong your advice is GREAT...Remember I have been drinking many drinks.

Now what, back to square one, I'm so exhausted from dating its hard work and is stressing me out... I would much rather have sex with random (clean) people it may just be easier.

Ok so most of this has not made any sense...I will have to probably delete it later..so if your reading this remember it and consider yourself lucky because it may be gone the next time your here.